Monday, November 14, 2011

We can do hard things!

I'm apologizing ahead if this post sounds a little preachy or churchy-but the reason I'm writing it is to give
myself some reassurance and hope. I'm writing this to remind myself why I'm here and why I should "keep on keepin on". So, if it helps anyone else out then its a win-win situation :) Life has been extra hard lately. It's crazy how everything can go from being so "perfect" to complete and utter chaos. There are many of my loved ones going through HARD things. And all I want to be able to do is save them and make everything better. I keep wondering, "Why won't Heavenly Father help them? Why won't he fix this? How can he let innocent people suffer so much?" My dad keeps reminding me that we all have our agency and God won't step in and take that away from us. I keep trying to remind myself that this life is a test...with many trials. And its up to us to decide if we are going to let these trials destroy us, or strengthen us. I have felt very alone and empty lately. Then I remembered this quote from one of my favorite talks...
"We know that on some level Jesus experienced the totality of mortal existence in Gethsemane. It's our faith that he experienced everything- absolutely everything. Sometimes we don't think through the implications of that belief. We talk in great generalities about the sins of all humankind, about the suffering of the entire human family. But we do not experience pain in generalities. We experience it individually. That mean Jesus know what it felt like when your mother died of cancer- how it was for your mother, how it still is for you. He knows what it felt like to lose the student body election. He knows that moment when the brakes locked, and the car started to skid. He experienced the slave ship sailing from Ghana toward Virgina. He experienced napalm in Vietnam. He knows about drug addiction and alcoholism.
..But he'll stay in that room if you put him there. The door to him is always open, but the door to you can be closed and stay closed - if you choose to close it. If there is one great constant in the universe is the unfailing love of the Savior, the other great constant is his unfailing respect for human agency. He will not override your will, even for your own good. He will not compel you to accept his help. He will not force you to accept his companionship. He leaves you free to choose. He's not waiting for us to be perfect. Perfect people do not need a Savior. He came to save us in our imperfections. He is the Lord of the living, and the living makes mistakes. He's not embarrassed by us, angry at us, or shocked. He wants us in our brokenness, in our unhappiness, in our guilt and our grief. You know that people who live in a certain latitude and experience long winter nights can become depressed and even suicidal, because something in our bodies requires whole spectrum light for a certain numbers of hours a day. Our spiritual requirement for light is just as desperate and as deep as our physical need for light. Jesus is the light of the world. We know that the world is a dark place sometimes, but we need not walk in darkness. The people who sit in darkness have seen a great light, and the people who walk in darkness can have a bright companion. We need him, and he is ready to come to us, if we'll open the door and let him in."

-Chieko N. Okazaki (Lighten up)

I often feel like no one truly understands how I feel and what I am going through. This talk is a great reminder that there IS one person who does know.

How comforting it is to know that my Savior, Jesus Christ, knows EXACTLY what I have been through and continue to go through. He

atoned for each and every one of our sins and sacrificed His life for me. He is willing to take upon all of our pain but like the talk says, we need to be humble enough to go to Him, ask for His help, and let Him in.

"Our destiny is greater than we can imagine. If only we understood who we are and what is in store for us, our hearts would overflow with such gratitude and happiness that it would enlighten even the darkest sorrows with the light and love of God, our Heavenly Father. The next time you feel unhappy, remember where you came from and where you are going. Rather than focus on things that dampen your thoughts with sorrow, choose to focus on those things that fill your soul with hope."

The Reflection in the Water

President Dieter F. Uchtdorf

“Think of the purest, most all-consuming love you can imagine. Now multiply that love by an infinite amount—that is the measure of God’s love for you. God does not look on the outward appearance. I believe that He doesn’t care one bit if we live in a castle or a cottage, if we are handsome or homely, if we are famous or forgotten. Though we are incomplete, God loves us completely. Though we are imperfect, He loves us perfectly. Though we may feel lost and without compass, God love encompasses us completely. He loves us because He is filled with an infinite measure of holy, pure, and indescribable love. We are important to God not because of our résumé but because we are His children. He loves every one of us, even those who are flawed, rejected, awkward, sorrowful, or broken. God’s love is so great that He loves even the proud, the selfish, the arrogant, and the wicked. What this means is that, regardless of our current state, there is hope for us. No matter our distress, no matter our sorrow, no matter our mistakes, our infinitely compassionate Heavenly Father desires that we draw near to Him so that He can draw near to us.”
Dieter F. Uchtdorf

I'm truly so thankful to have the gospel in my life. I feel like I need to express it more...especially with the holiday season just around the corner. It is the perfect time of year to reflect on all of our blessings and to remember the true meaning of the holidays. For now, I'm going to take one day at a time, remember that there is a bigger plan for us that I can't comprehend, and a reason for everything we go through. God is mindful of us and wants us to succeed. We CAN do hard things!

If anyone made it this far, good job and thanks for reading. :) Love you all!

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Under the weather

This is basically how I'm feeling today....
I went to the good old doctor this morning and the verdict is Strep throat. Really??? If I'm going to be sick at least it could be the flu so I can lose some weight! haha jk..but seriously! I can't remember the last time I've felt this sick...I can't swallow or talk without my throat being in severe pain. Thankfully I got some antibiotics so hopefully they will kick in soon! I can't afford to be sick right now! But for now...I'll be lying on the couch watching OTH & Modern Family re-runs. If anyone wants to bring me a jamba juice, you are more than welcome to! :)

Monday, September 26, 2011


If you need a good laugh today....keep reading!
Just ask Tanner...!
bahaha Thanks Pops :)
You know it's true!
This happens to me frequently!
I know some people I'd like to send this to...
haha so me!
I could see this happening to me!

:) :)

Friday, September 16, 2011

Missing you....

I am really missing this boy today...thank goodness I get to see him in 2 weeks!!! It has been really hard not having my best friend around for the past little while but, as they say, distance does make the heart grow fonder. I can't wait to see my Trevor!!! I LOVE YOU Tan.

Thursday, September 15, 2011

Today was beyond overwhelming. It was just one of those days when I wanted to give up. I'm pretty sure every call I got at work was a bad must have been upset customer day.
I'm normally not a Debbie Downer but the past few days I have been. I thought maybe it would be therapeutic to sorry for the "poor me" post but this is my blog after all. :) Life is hard. Lately I can't help but think thoughts like, "Why me?" or "Why did this happen to me?" As I was reading something it said when we are feeling that way instead of asking, "why me" we should ask "What could I learn from this experience?" Easier said than done, I know. But I'm going to try to work on that. This life is a test after all...and without trials where is the test? Sometimes I just find it hard to believe that I agreed to all of these trials before I came! The bottom line is I did and I've got to endure it and learn from it. Here's to hoping that someday this pain will all make sense! xoxo

Monday, June 27, 2011

Catching up!

Once again, I'm really behind! So I thought I would do an update with lots of pictures...everyone likes pictures, right?! I've had a fun spring/summer so far...lets hope it just keeps getting better!

Wrong order but birthday dinner with my sweet friends!
80's dancing at Liquid Joe's for Tanesha's birthday
Taco Tuesday with Jon before he left :(
Classic Skating
Scooter rides on summer days
Eden's blessing day :)
Cort's graduation party
REAL game
Ethan's baptism

My 22nd birthday!
Celebrating with Tan!
Day at Lagoon
Trip to Monticello
Can you see the horse head??
FINALLY reunited with my best friends!
Bike ride on the two-seater